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_{If banned from speaking, the soul will die,
And each stifled voice starves the world of life.}

Je t’aime?

Déçu…

Suis-je vraiment que insignifiant? Parfois je me demande si vraiment vous m’aimez. (Am I really that insignificant? Sometimes I wonder if you really love me.)

My heart is hungry for a food that won’t come.

Me: Je t’aime! Avez-vous even même moi l’amour?
You: …

Guess what….?

It’s our 1 year anniversary!!!

Oh my god, I can’t believe this seriously. We are together for 1 year! Mind you, 1 year!!! Time really flies. I still remembered vividly how we actually start talking. It was through Plurk that we knew each other. I still remembered he’s a busybody guy who added me in Plurk and started asking “What’s the best way to stay awake at night?” So I went disturbing him and say, “Coffee!” and he gave me a reply saying coffee doesn’t work on him. Soon after a long chat with him in Plurk, I start to find him a really weird ass. I’ve never thought that we would have so much in common and have endless topic to talk about. It was really a rare sight that I can communicate with someone older than me by 4 years (maybe because I hardly communicated with my brother. That’s why.)!  Anyway, his voice was god damn sweet when he first gave me a morning call to wake me up for exams. Subsequently, messaging and calling him becomes part of my daily hectic routine. That wasn’t how I fell in love with him.

How I actually fell in love with him was when he came to fetch me home after a trip to night safari with my CCA girls. And he initiates to help me carry my bag! That’s when I start to fall for him, because I reckon 9 out of 10 guys wouldn’t help a girl to carry her bag when their relationship was merely just F-R-I-E-N-D-S! Well, he gave me my favourite chocolate when we came to fetch me too. How sweet right? I thought most guys are jerk, but suddenly my thought of that change because he’s the exceptional. When our eyes met, I knew there’s no way I can say no if he’d ever ask for my hand. For that moment, I seriously hope time would freeze. We stroll home together and he sent me to my block and went home. Gentlemen, I would say. He got me pondering why would he had a failed relationship when he already score 100/100 in my heart. Isn’t he the guy most girls wanted? I kept quiet and hope to ask him someday.

Few days later, on the 18 November 2008; 9:34pm, he asked for my hand. My goodness! Just as I hope this day would arrived. I reckon god paired our souls up on heaven and send him down for me because he knows he’d love me really well. Days after we got together, I finally know he’s a vegetarian. No, I don’t think there’s anything wrong being a vegetarian anyway. That’s when I realise his ex-girlfriends left him because of that damn stupid reason. I felt the opposite way, I felt good bout him being a vegetarian because this shows he’s compassionate to the animals and definitely he will be to me. This relationship is just purely me and him, there’s nothing got to do with food, family background or whatever. I knew from the moment he tells me he’s a vegetarian, I’d had to eat whatever he eats. No more being fussy. At first, I dare not eat the mock meat because it taste kind of weird, but slowly I start to love the smell and almost everything bout vegetarian. I was so in love with vegetarian food that I’m slowly giving up being a carnivore because meat tastes weird to me now. I’ve made friends through him, but I’ve no idea how they think of me seriously. But he always tells me, people like me when they see me. Till now, I’ve no idea how true is that…perhaps some comments would help?

I’m really happy with him now. My life is complete, really. He’s really the best. Though at times we had a tiff, I’m really, really thankful that you compromise me in anyway. I seriously have no idea how you actually withstand my weird temper!

Hey baby, thanks a million for every little thing you’ve done for me. Thanks for holding on to me when I’m at my lowest point of life. Thanks for accepting my nonsense and flaws. As you know I don’t have much quality. You’ve been really a great boyfriend. I love the way you are now, there’s no need for you to change! Though sometimes you’ve been really naggy and make me pissed, I still love you. No matter what happen in life, you’re going to be MINE forever. To have and to hold on this day forward, till death do us part.

I love you forever.

I used to hate “forever” because they are lies and only happen in fairytales and because my past relationships doesn’t last that long. But now, I believe in “forever” because he has shown and prove to me what love is.

Guess what baby?

I see YOU in my future. What about you?

This is L-O-V-E

xoxo.

BFF

I’m feeling exceedingly depressed. My one and only best friend who stay at Hougang are moving over to Bukit Batok next week. Sigh, I don’t like it because it’s really far from where I stay. I just hope she would stay at where she’s currently staying. She’s my best friend whom we always crap and have breakfast/lunch together. She always encourages me whenever I’m at the lowest point of my life. We are like sisters who confide problems with each other. I feel as though there’s a knife piercing through my heart. I hate when I have to be separated with the one I really, really loved. I’m getting all emotional now. Tearing as usual, I just don’t like the feeling of parting, seriously.

Dorothy oh…promises me you’d be back soon okay? :( I don’t like being alone at Hougang. I love you my dearest best friend.

PS: I HATE B.B!

Boo!

Christmas is coming in around 40 more days? What do you wish for?

When I was young… I remembered my siblings and I always play in the air-condition room pretending we are in North Pole. We built our own “igloo” and wrapped ourselves with blankets. We could just fell asleep half way through and slept till the next morning. Those days were really worth reminiscing, seriously. Now we’ve all grown up, have our own friends and programmes, I reckon we’ve never forget each other and the past too.

3 more days to our 1 year anniversary, time flies seriously. It’s great to look back how we first got together – how we first met, talk, and etc. It’s even a wonder how he touches my heart deep down. How I actually fell in love with him. Happiness is invisible; it can never be seen or touches. It’s felt in the heart. It has to be two people feeling the same way then it can be consider as happiness. I guess I’ve fallen really deep in love with him. Everyday I see him; I fall in love with him all over again. He is the world to me. He’s the greatest boyfriend anyone could ever ask for, and I hope I can call you mine forever. There is just too much coincidence in our relationship, be it birthdays, living in the same areas and stuff. There are just too much to be listed. We have telepathy almost every time, which always make us say whatever the other one wants to say. My love for him are far beyond words could be able to describe. Anyhow, I just love him for who he is – all his strength and flaws. Can you even believe he’s totally flawless?! He’s really one nice guy who takes care of my needs before his and showers me with his unconditional love. Oh my god, I’m going ga-ga over him. OH MY GOD! JOASH TAN, WHY ARE YOU SO SWEET?!

Anyway, shall we have lunch tomorrow together? I miss you right now at this moment.

Ps. I look weird now… cus I cut bangs.

Lumbar vertebrae.

Silly me, I slipped and fell down in the toilet today while bathing. Now there’s a bruises on my back somewhere at the lumbar vertebrae. It’s really painful whenever I rub it. Sigh, hopefully it doesn’t worsen tomorrow else I’d be dead. I feel a little numb on my lumbar; could that be because I sat too long on the chair? I guess I better get going. Last paper tomorrow before I go party and stay over at my lovelies’ house! OMG! I’m so excited!!!